walls are crumbling down

i sit here and think
i lie here and question
am i running, running from You
So far from home such a long distance to travel
i have the world before me but i am so lost
I stretch out my hand to You and snatch it away
do you understand, do you know how it feels
sitting here thinking
lying here questioning
i have built a wall
a barrier to keep You out
looking for a way out
looking for a way to stay safe inside the walls
looking for a way to keep You out
You don't know what it's like
i sit here and ponder
i lie here asking You why
there is so much to do and so much to say
not enough time
You come knocking on the wall
looking for a way in
sitting here thinking
lying here wondering
how do i respond when I have kept You out so long
i have grown accustom to relying on me
independence and pride are the mortar
bitterness and malice the clay
i know what You say
say what You mean and mean what You say
how could You understand and how could You know
i sit here thinking
i lie here questioning
Your knock is getting softer
or is the wall getting thicker
You found a weak spot
You whisper through the crack
why do You call my name
why do You wait for me
here You come with a sledge hammer
what can one Man do
what can one Man say
i hear You calling
i see You coming and realize You never left
You do know
You do understand
the walls are crumbling down
i lay here bare scared to show You
tumbling down all around me
where do i go from here
sitting here thinking
lying here waiting
scared of what You might find
afraid of what You'll see

Please come rescue me