decorated sky

i look above and see the decorated sky and hear the music of the night. i wish he were here to hold me tight. i miss the costant look in his eyes, even though they showed nothing but hurt. the mystery behind the shaded pain was easily explained. strange the love i have for him. i feel used up and forgotten. yet everything i am missing his prickly kiss. this strange love of mine, holds me hostage with no escape. where do i go to ease the pain? will i ever be whole again? i gave me away and have no idea how to find me again. i look above and see the decorated sky and hear the music of the night. i realize i am discovering me again. perhaps one day it will be mine to give away again.